Everyone always says it goes soooooooo fast and I'd think yeah, I get it. I've lived 31 years of life. I understand how many hours are in a day and how this whole time thing works. Me and Beyonce get the same amount. But just like everything else about parenthood, I didn't get it. You can't. As I pack up yet another bin of clothes that don't fit I cannot wrap my head around this. It's a weird thing to feel like I don't remember life before you yet also feel like you've only been here for like 5 minutes.
But then there's this. When we had Luca someone who has a baby just a few months older said how she couldn't even remember her baby that small. I thought, that's weird! Nope, I look at this picture of my little 10 day old and I can't remember it! How did this happen?! Where did this baby go?! Were you really that little?!
We're in this stage where I feel like everyday is something brand new. Last month you were kinda sorta crawling backwards and now you are flying forward room to room. I know how close you are to walking and I am not ready. You've gone from a baby to this little person and it feels like we're in fast forward. When you grab my face with both hands and lay the juiciest smooch from my nose to my chin I think that it's all over. My heart has exploded into 9 billion pieces again and I'm sure it will stop beating. You've got a special smile just for momma and a special one just for dada. You're already aware of just how funny your daddy is and well I think you might just have a bit of him in ya here?!
A few years ago I came across this quote "don't let the world change your smile, let your smile change the world." I know I see you through mom tinted glasses but that smile. It really does seem world changing to me. You are oh so happy. There's a book called happiest baby on the block which ironically is about sleep. This has never been your forte but that has never effected your demeanor. There are not enough words for how much you are loved my little man!